I’ve never made a ‘thought post’ like this before, or a discussion post, or anything like this, simply because I haven’t come across something that I’ve felt I was passionate enough about to write about. But this week, I have found it, and it’s for all the wrong reasons.
If you didn’t know, recently, the autistic community has been outraged by a book called To Siri, With Love by Judith Newman. The book is a memoir from a mother of an autistic boy, Gus, and her thoughts on bringing him up. Sounds like a nice, uplifting read about a mother’s love for her child, doesn’t it?
It’s a disgusting, dehumanizing and downright dangerous book, perpetuating stereotypes and applying 1950’s thought to 2017. I have not read the book myself, only seen quotes from it, but the quotes alone made me feel physically sick to my stomach. If you want to see a live tweet from an autistic author, reviewer and editor reading the whole book, I would check out Kaelan Rhywiol’s twitter thread. This blog post is more of an explanation of just how wrong Newman’s thoughts are, and just how dangerous they can be.
You’re probably wondering what qualifies me to make these observations and explanations. I’m just a 21-year-old blogger, what qualifies me to comment and say that these views are wrong?
For starters, I’m autistic. Aspergers, to be exact. Secondly, I’m a writer myself, and hold a degree in Creative and Professional Writing. And thirdly, I’m a human being on planet Earth who actually has a shred of compassion for others with Aspergers, autism, and everything else to do with neurodivergence.
So, personally, I think I’m a little qualified to talk about this, even if I’m not, I’m putting my opinions out there because people need to see that this book is not in any way acceptable or correct.
For starters, the author has not gotten permission from her son to write this book, so he has had no control at all over the content of this book. This takes away his agency and his chance of privacy. The author happily writes about everything, including this child’s toilet training, and she didn’t seek his permission first.
She sought permission from her neurotypical child, but not her neurodivergent one. It’s not like either boy is a child either, they’re 13 at the time of writing, and 15 at the time of publishing, and therefore more than capable of knowing exactly what they want to be published for the world to read. If that doesn’t already warn you of her opinions on her autistic son’s agency, I don’t know what will.
Newman goes on to talk about how:
“One, every person with ASD I’ve ever met has some deficit in his “theory of mind.” Theory of mind is the ability to understand, first, that we have wishes and desires and a way of looking at the world—i.e., self-awareness.”
Now, I can immediately call ‘twaddle’ on that, because I know that we autistics are more than capable of being self-aware. In fact, we’re probably too self-aware. We all know that others have wishes and desires, we understand that the people around us are people, that everyone has thoughts and feelings and emotions. We’re not robots, we may not totally be able to read a person, but we damn well know that they have emotions and thoughts.
To say that we don’t is so dehumanising, it equates us to robots, to automatons with no understanding of the world around us. We understand the world just fine, and we understand that the people around us do not understand us and that we are seen as ‘outsiders’ because of our neurodivergence. And guess what? It makes us feel awful, we feel scared and anxious, because people actually think that we do not have self-awareness.
This is also followed by the so-called conclusions of an undated study, which states this:
Several brain-imaging studies on autistic kids show a pronounced difference in blood flow in the areas of the brain that are thought to be responsible for certain kinds of story comprehension—the kind that allows us to know what the characters are feeling, and predict what they might do next.
Which is such blatant ignorance and so utterly wrong I want to cry. Do you know how many writers out there are autistic? How many autistics love stories, TV shows, films, and theatre? You’re reading the words of an avid writer and reader, one who loves the written word loves guessing what’s going to happen next and loves writing about character emotions.
Every autistic I’ve ever known loves to read, or loves watching things on TV and generally loves storytelling. Some other people on my creative and professional writing university course were autistic, and guess what? We didn’t fail the course, we didn’t fail to comprehend the books we were reading, we were able to guess character emotions, discuss what may happen next. And we managed to write our own stories – using well-known characters as well as our own – and we were brilliant at it. I got a 2:1 personally, other’s got First Class Degrees. Could we do that if we couldn’t comprehend, predict and understand characters? I think not.
And, on another note, this study has no date, no additional information, not even a researcher name. So the audience cannot look this study up for themselves and see just how far the researcher was talking out of their backside. Never, ever trust a book which talks about scientific studies unless it has references you can look up yourself. That’s how the ‘vaccines cause autism’ myth still lives on to this day.
The author then goes back to the theory of mind rubbish, say that her son loves music, but can’t perform because:
It doesn’t matter how good he gets; I can’t imagine him performing in any way. Or, rather, before he does, he has to have that thing he has yet to develop, that theory of mind, so that he understands he is doing this for others, not just himself. You can’t be a good performer if you haven’t mastered the concept of audience, of playing for the enjoyment of others.
Excuse you, he does have the theory of mind, and would perfectly understand that he would be performing for others not just himself. I’m sure he could be an amazing performer if he wanted to. Ever heard of Mozart? Yeah, he was autistic. Tim Burton? Not a musician, but a writer and director, autistic. Dan Aykroyd? An actor, who has to convey emotions and have comedic timing, autistic. Screw you if you think autistics cannot perform well on stage and screen, or any other creative venture they wish.
Lack of theory of mind can, quite frankly, kiss my autistic ass.
A few chapters later, we come onto the more damaging rhetoric. The rhetoric I cannot believe was allowed to be published in 2017. I’ll only write about this one point and the most damaging part of this book, so I don’t go on forever, but these points have to be pointed out.
What could be worse than what’s already been said? I hear you ask.
Simple, the idea that autistics with ‘odd’ interests become criminals.
Yes, you read that right. This author, a mother of an autistic child, who she supposedly loves and understands, thinks that autism + odd interests = criminality.
What. The. Actual. HELL is this woman thinking?! Who in their right minds decides to write, with absolutely no evidence whatsoever that autistics with odd interests become criminals? Honestly, who decides to write that in a book?! And what kind of editor actually lets it get through the editing process and allows it to be published?!
What kind of editor lets any of this get published?!
That’s an entirely different story quite frankly, but seriously, who thinks that autistics become criminals because of odd interests? What even counts as an ‘odd interest’ anyway?
Does this author have any idea how much damage she can cause by saying something like this? Does she have any idea how many neurotypical people are going to read this book, believe everything she says, and distrust everyone with autism for the rest of their lives? We are already misunderstood enough, let alone without having the idea of being criminals implanted in people’s brains.
We have special interests, some of them are not as ‘normal’ as others, so what? We like what we like, it doesn’t mean we’re going to start stealing things, murdering people, or anything of the sort. We’re probably going to research our special interest, and if we can, use it to make a career of it. I’m using my love of writing to create a freelance writing business, others may use their great interest in crime and criminals to become a police officer or a criminologist.
We’re not going to start stealing, or anything like that, we understand the damn law and the difference between right and wrong. We are not toddlers with no concept of how the world works.
Finally, I reach the worst point possible. The worst, most disgusting, heinous, part of this book. The most dangerous, abhorrent and vile part of this book. The part that made me literally want to throw up in disgust that someone could possibly ever think this, let alone about her own child.
I’ll put a trigger warning here – if you are at all triggered by eugenics, yes eugenics in 2017, stop reading now. This will do nothing but cause more damage to your mental health than this woman is worth.
Because, Judith Newman, mother of an autistic child she supposedly loves (and I highly doubt she actually loves him at all, judging by this book), wants to sterilise her son so he can’t have children. You read that right, this so-called loving mother, doesn’t think her child should have children, simply because he is autistic.
Don’t believe me, here are the quotes on the subject from the book. Go and get a sick bucket before you read them though:
No, the medical issue that really makes me hyperventilate is fertility. It’s a question all parents of special needs kids wrestle with, whether they speak of it or not. What happens when you discover a lack of social skills isn’t a surefire method of birth control? That the kid you think would be entirely unable to find a partner does just that, though his or her ability to understand what it takes to raise another human being is limited?
Not feeling sick enough? Try another one:
Nobody wants to visualize their child that intimately, but when I think of Gus in a sexual situation, it generally has a Benny Hill soundtrack. And anything with that music does not end well. A vasectomy is so easy. A couple of snips, a couple of days of ice in your pants, and voilà. A life free of worry. Or one less worry. For me. How do you say “I’m sterilizing my son” without sounding like a eugenicist?
You don’t. BECAUSE YOU’RE A EUGENICIST WHO SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED ANYWHERE NEAR ANY NEURODIVERGENT PERSON EVER AGAIN YOU AWFUL, DISGUSTING HUMAN BEING.
First of all – who the hell thinks about their child having sex? Second of all, who is this woman to decide whether her child should be allowed to have children? That is his choice, and his choice alone, it has nothing to do with his mother and her wishes, it’s about his. She has absolutely no right to decide to make that decision for him.
Judith Newman doesn’t think her son is capable of finding someone who could love him, capable of loving someone else, or capable of raising a child. She mocks the idea of her child having sex by comparing the idea to a Benny Hill sketch. It is dehumanising, abhorrent, and so utterly wrong it makes me want to throw up.
There are so many autistic parents out there in the world, so many autistic couples out there raising children. Neurotypical people are not the only ones who create children and raise them. Neurodivergent people do too, and they do it damn well. They certainly do a better job than Judist Newman does, especially when they too have neurodivergent children.
Neurodivergent parents are the best people equipped to raise neurodivergent kids, why? Because we understand what they’re going through, we lived through it ourselves when we were their age. We know how to get them diagnosed, we know what kind of help they’ll need if they need any, and we know how to support and love them just as they are. We do not neglect our children, we do not fail to love them, and we certainly do not need our choice decided for us.
Yes, some of us don’t want kids, I’m one of them, but some of us do. And we do a fantastic job at it. We certainly do better than Judith Newman, because we do not think any of the things she does about her autistic child.
If you got to the bottom of this mammoth post, I applaud you, and I hope you agree with me now if you didn’t already. At the very least, I hope you see why To Siri, With Love is a dangerous book. It is filled with stereotypes, outdated information and just plain horrendous opinions. It should not be on the shelves, it should not be read at all. Whoever greenlit this book, and everyone involved in it should be absolutely ashamed of themselves.
And Judith Newman, you should be the most ashamed out of everyone. How dare you think any of this about your child, how dare you spread this disgusting rhetoric in a world that already misunderstands autism, how dare you make it worse and profit from it.
And how dare you ever open your child up to such ridicule and bullying, you have given everyone he ever meets in his life the perfect ammunition to demean and bully him, to know all of his darkest secrets, and what you really think of him. You may have just ruined his life more than your awful parenting already did. Congratulations.
If Gus Newman or any other autistic person who faces this kind of prejudice ever reads this, I want you to know that you are brilliant. You are human, you are capable of love, you are capable of being loved. Everything in this book is a lie and should be completely ignored.
You can do anything you set your mind to, including parenting.
You are not a criminal.
You are nothing like what this woman purports you to be.
If anyone tries to tell you that you cannot be something, prove them wrong, if anyone tries to take away your autonomy, fight back, if anyone dares to stereotype you, show them exactly how fantastic you are.
There’s a lot of idiots out there in the world, and you are not one of them. You are loved, and intelligent, and a person. Never let anyone take that away from you.
If you saw my previous video, you’ll know that on Thursday I reached 30k, and planned to relax a bit on Friday and watch Punisher, then pick back up on Saturday and continue on with the challenge.
That didn’t happen.
Well, it sort of did, sort of didn’t.
So Friday, I managed six episodes of Punisher, and liveblogged them in a post that will be up once I’ve finished the entire series, but apparently, that entirely threw me off my game. For the last two days, I’ve written sod all, and nearly lost my two-day lead.
I’d always built up to be at least a day ahead of schedule so if weekends like this happened, it wasn’t the end of the world. But to lose it over the course of two days fills me with a lot of anxiety because it means that I don’t have as much of a safety net anymore. I’m a big fan of a writing safety net, in case the worst happens, so to have it be quickly depleted is really worrying.
But, I have a plan.
This week, I’m going to aim to write 2000 words a day. I’ve finally got my usual daily routine back, which has been missing from literally November 1st, so I’m hoping that means I’m going to get some level of normality back.
And with that normality, I also get:
- The chance to write freely, without having to worry about fitting it into a one hour space, or having to rely entirely on catching up at midnight.
- The ability to watch the inspiration videos I’ve had saved for weeks now, waiting to be watched, so I can be in the mood for writing.
- The routine I’ve craved, and thrived upon, for years now. With hopefully fewer interruptions, fewer people in the house to distract me, and just generally more chance at concentrating on what I’m doing, instead of racing to get out as many words as possible in the shortest amount of time.
To say the least, I’m excited about it, and hopeful that I can actually manage to get out the extra 333 words a day like I want. It doesn’t seem like much, but those numbers soon add up, and will hopefully give me back my two day word cushion. At the very least, it’ll get me a bit closer to my goal of finishing the whole of NaNoWriMo early.
There’s only ten days left of this entire challenge, and I’ve never finished on the 30th, I’ve always finished early, and while it’s not a bad thing to finish on the 30th, I don’t really want to break my streak. I’ll be ecstatic if I finish on the 30th, but at the same time, I’d really like to finish early, even if it’s only a day early. It’s a stupid thing to want, especially in such a massive challenge, but yet, I can’t help but want it.
Either way, I’m going to be happy with my progress, and I’m going to hope I’m going to go into overdrive this week. At the very least, I’m going to try.
I feel like this week may be a good week for me, because I’m hopefully getting my routine back, and can rush that little bit less. I can take my time this week. Really put some thought into what I’m doing. Hopefully go to bed earlier. Maybe even dedicate some time to reading, which I have been severely lax in doing this month.
I don’t know, but I have a good feeling about this week. I’m hoping I’m proved right.
So… I jinxed it in my last blog post. Turns out, this week could be worse and that things were going to get a lot tougher.
I mean, I’m still ahead of schedule, but it’s been hard. It’s taken several midnight writing sessions, and lot of snatching any moment possible to get things done, but I’ve managed it as best as I can.
But, I’m still ahead, and that’s what matters. As long as I’m not behind, I’m happy.
On a lighter note though, I have done some great things this week. I’ve managed to:
- Start sending my children’s book off to publishers
- Keep myself ahead of schedule
- Write a few things I actually liked writing.
Not a lot of what I’ve written, I’ve deleted most of it and rewritten it. But the bits I’ve kept I’ve reasonably liked, which is always a start.
Currently though, that’s all I really have to say on NaNo week 2, I would make thing longer, and probably spell check it too if it wasn’t 2am in the morning, but never mind. How are you guys getting along? I hope it’s all going well for you, leave me a comment below about your progress!
Remember, remember the 5th of November. Not only is it Guy Fawkes Night in the UK, it’s also the 5th day of NaNoWriMo, signalling the end of the first week of 2017’s attempt.
And it’s not going too badly so far.
You know that blog post I made a few weeks back, talking about how scared I was for this year’s madness? Turns out, this week has proven a few things to me:
- I can write in my madhouse, with all the distractions going around.
- Midnight writing isn’t always needed (ironically, apart from right this moment).
- I can actually get ahead of myself when I put my mind to it.
Currently, my progress graph looks like this:
So you can see that I’m currently running around a day ahead of myself, which is where I usually like to stay, as it gives me a cushion for those really bad days where absolutely nothing gets done because words refuse to co-operate.
On top of that, I’ve also already managed to achieve my second goal of this year’s NaNo, which was to finish editing my children’s novel, so it’s ready for publication.
I know, editing isn’t usually allowed during NaNoWriMo, but I knew that if I didn’t finish editing this book now, it was never, ever going to get done. It was going to languish on my hard drive forever and never see the light of day. And I didn’t want that, so I decided that on top of getting to the 50,000 words, I was going to actually edit a book on top of that.
Not only do I now count my children’s novel as done and ready to start sending off to publishers (ahhhhhhhh!) I’ve also managed to come up with three more books in the same universe, to make an entire series out of it! I totally didn’t think that I was going to make more than one sequel, but as I thought about it, I got several more ideas rolling around in my head, and it’s just built into this four book series I can’t wait to get stuck in with!
Of course, I’m going to wait until after NaNo to start that, I’ve got enough on my plate as it is, without writing more children’s books on top of that. But, I’m really happy with what’s coming next in that series, and my progress so far with the projects I’m focusing on this month.
All in all, I’m really proud of myself this month so far, and I’m really hoping it continues. Currently, only time will tell, but things are looking good. I could be jinxing this, which means at this time next week I’ll be having a bit of a breakdown, but right now, things are feeling good. I feel like I’m in the flow of this now, and a hell of a lot more confident in this years 50,000 attempt.
There are still 25 more days to go, but I feel like I can do it now, that my confidence is back, that I may actually be falling back in love with writing again.
Let’s hope it continues!
How’s everyone else’s writing going? Anybody storming ahead, anybody really far behind, anybody not taking part at all because it’s too crazy? Let me know in the comments!
Loki is on the throne of Asgard.
Thor is having visions of the end of worlds.
Hela has escaped her prison.
Ragnarok is upon us, time to fight!
And what a fight it is! Thor Ragnarok is the third solo adventure for Chris Hemsworth’s Thor, and it is most probably the best one.
This film see’s Hemsworth really come into his own as Thor, as he tries to stop The Goddess Of Death, Hela (Cate Blanchett), from destroying Asgard. There’s only one problem – he’s stuck on Sakaar, forced to fight The Hulk (Mark Ruffalo) for the entertainment of The Grandmaster (Jeff Goldblum).
Loki (Tom Hiddleston) is of no help, and neither is Valkyrie (Tessa Thompson), a fellow Asgardian stuck on the planet.
It’s entirely up to Thor to bring his team together and face down the Goddess, to save his people, his planet, and possibly the galaxy, from Hela’s wrath.
What follows, is a brilliant, uproarious thrill fest of fights, high stakes and laugh out loud humour, reminiscent of Guardians Of The Galaxy.
Taika Waititi really took a risk with Ragnarok, while not everyone liked the previous formula for Thor solo films, they still worked brilliantly, and possibly fit better with the classic Norse Mythology. But Taiki utterly flips this on its head – Ragnarok is bright and full of jokes, Thor doesn’t take himself as seriously, Loki doesn’t get all the oneliners, and even Hulk gets a chance to shine outside of a battle scene.
But despite all the humour, you still feel the gravity of the situation.
Hela is on the warpath, Asgard is unprotected, and there’s nothing stopping her from destroying everything in her way. The danger is very real, and while this film is hilarious, it never forgets that it is supposed to be about Ragnarok. The tone takes a little while to adjust to, but once you do, this film propels its audience through every second and never lets you go.
I loved every second of this film, it was fantastic from beginning to the end. From the storyline, the humour, the new characters, and the cameo (Hiddlesbatch fans will be reasonably pleased with Doctor Strange’s appearance, though we will have to wait until Infinity War for a possible magic fight between Stephen and Loki), it was all genius. Definitely a risk work taking.
Thor finally got his chance to shine and become The God Of Thunder he was always supposed to be. Norse Mythology was given its due, and while a lot was changed to fit more comic book elements into it, the essence was still there.
I feel like Thor’s journey has properly begun now, I cannot wait to see where it takes us from here!