So… NaNoWriMo 2018 starts tomorrow.
Okay, okay, breathe. This isn’t my first rodeo with NaNo, this isn’t even my second. This is my 6th… or 7th… I can’t quite remember. Either way, I’ve done this before, so I should be calm and ready…
Am I really ready though?
I mean, I have my idea in my head – a post-apocalyptic story revolving around the Devil themselves. I know my setting, which I’m not telling you about, because spoilers. I semi-have my characters. I know nationalities, positions, and most of their personalities – but I don’t have names.
I even have a few scenes in my head planned out and ready to go.
But, do I feel at all ready? Am I ready to get going, to type more than I’ve typed all year, to really get into this story?
I don’t know, I simply do not know.
This year feels like an off-year in so many ways. My ideas recently have been a struggle to get onto the page, and I’ve got so many personal life worries, and new business adventures on the horizon, that I barely know whether I’m coming or going anymore.
Does that mean I’m going to throw in the towel though? Am I going to give up this year, say NO to NaNo?
I’m going to throw myself in as hard as I can. I’m going to focus in, and get right into this. I’m going to write like I haven’t written all year.
Will I get to the 50 thousand word goal? Maybe, maybe not. But will I be able to say that I tried?
You’re damn well right I will be able to.
This year may be an off year, but it is not a wasted year. Even if I only got 25,000 words down, that’s still more than I had before November. It’s still a start. It’s not the end of the world – it’s the start of a brand new one.
This year, I’m going for it. I’m going to beat my demons away, I’m going to fight this brain fog, and I’m fighting to win.
No more blaming my work tools, no more blaming my brain, no more procrastinating.
I’m going to win NaNoWriMo 2018, in whatever ways I can. I will not accept defeat this year, after so many years of success.
NaNoWriMo 2018, I’m coming for you.