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Books I Can’t Find Anywhere


Like many, many bookish people, I have a book wish list a mile long. A wish list that will probably never be entirely bought/read, not just because I don’t have the money,/shelf space but because I cannot find these books in any bookstore I go to.

I’ve been looking for these books for so long I’ve all but given up on finding them anywhere but online. And while I could buy these books online, it’s not as much fun as finding a book in the store, is it?

So, which books can I never find in any store, ever? Here’s the short list:

The Dark Descent Of Elizabeth Frankenstein. I’m a big fan of the idea of Frankenstein, he’s such an interesting character, I’ve loved several films about him and his monster, as well as the Frankenstein play. So, when I heard that there was a book all about someone close to Frankenstein, I was sold. But, do you think, in the two years I’ve been interested in the book, I’ve found it anywhere? Nope!

Wayward Children series. Now everyone and their dog has been talking about this series, and to say the least, I was incredibly interested. So, when I went on a hunt for the books, I was so disappointed that I couldn’t find them anywhere! In the end, I had to order the first book online, and then ask for the rest for my birthday, because I’d entirely given up on finding these books on shelves. To this day, I still haven’t seen a single one anywhere.


Heart Of Iron. Another book I’ve looked for forever and have never found. This book doesn’t have as much hype of Every Heart A Doorway, but I’m still shocked that I’ve never seen it on a shelf, after three years of looking and multiple stores across multiple towns.

Seafire. Again, this one has entirely eluded me for the last year, and I have no idea why. Seafire has been a reasonably hyped book in the community, and yet, I’ve never seen it on any shelf in any book store I’ve been to.

Quite frankly, I could go on, and give the entire list of the books I can’t find anywhere but online, but if I did, I’d be here forever.

But, you get the picture, these books are incredibly hard to find in stores, and it makes me wonder, why? Why is it so hard to find books in stores, especially when they’re so hyped? Is it a lack of shelf space? Is it because the stores expect you to order the book into the store? What is it?

Does anybody else have this problem? Tell me down below the books you can never find in the store, I’d love to share the pain of never being able to find anything in stores or just theories as to where these books are hiding!


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Captain Marvel Review


Marvel has been on a roll with making films for the last decade, creating an entire cinematic universe, spanning 22 films to date and changing the way Hollywood looks at superheroes forever. There’s only ever been one problem – it’s been male-centric for 90% of that time.

Yes, there’s been strong women involved, but they’ve rarely been given a true time to shine and come into their own. Until now.

As of midnight last night, Captain Marvel was released – a female lead, solo superhero movie.

I’m not going to lie, I cried watching this. Three times. With tears of pure, unadulterated joy. Joy I cannot fully express in words. I couldn’t believe what I was watching.

A strong, powerful woman, completely owning her powers, unapologetic in her personality and beliefs, and fighting every step of the way to defy the odds against her.

She has female friends and non-sexualised relationships with men.

She passes the Bechdel test multiple times, with multiple women.

She passes the ‘sexy lamp’ test, along with every woman in this film.

Captain Marvel is a hero, in every sense of the word.

Watching her journey was a revelation, and so damn empowering I’m tearing up just thinking about it. Never before have I seen a woman in a film so determined, so herself, with no room to change because of a man. She doesn’t seduce anybody or let anybody treat her as if she is less than she really is. Even when her agency is taken away, for whatever reason that may be, she grabs it back with both hands, and prove that she is not one to be messed with.

I loved her, I loved her so much. I’m still slightly speechless after such a groundbreaking movie. I can’t believe just how far Marvel went to say ‘screw you’ to anybody who thinks that women can’t be heroic, can’t save the universe, can’t be as powerful as Carol Danvers is. Because Carol Danvers doesn’t stay down. She gets up. Over and over and over again. She stands against injustice, prejudice, and sexism.

Captain Marvel goes higher, further, faster than any other hero I’ve seen. And while she hasn’t kicked Peggy Carter off her top spot in my affections list, she has shot into the stratosphere of my affections. I adored her, she was the hero I needed to see when I was a little girl. I cannot wait to see more of her in the future.

In short, Captain Marvel is a groundbreaking, revolutionary movie. It’s action-packed, filled with little references to other Marvel heroes without being over the top, and completely owns its power in the industry. It’s been a long time coming, but I’m so glad she’s here.

Thanos doesn’t stand a chance.